not feeling too well..wtf not well for the past 2 weeks!flu fever sore throatand today i had swollen eye lids when i reached home.so pissed!goin to the doc tml evening for the h1n1 jab and to see my face!next week got to take the influenza jab and the week after the hypatites jab!!so many!hopfully everything will ve well when im not around..i jus gotta tolerate for 2 years!i hate it when we quarrel!we should we quarrelling over LV bags like wat u said!!=Di hearts ya best fren.i think we jus need some understanding!hahahahaayou're the best!finally met my lqw darling..she wanted to get her LCD screen and since both of us are not convenient to meet at night, we met in the afternoon!!woke up early jus for her and after buyin i called shirley..she was alone at bugis and so i asked her to join in..after a while nigel called and he joined in too.lqw hope u didnt mind!! HAHAAthey are very nice ppl too and i know u love knowing new frens!hahahaha!!missed debb's bdae..wasn't feeling too well tt day..im sorry daughter in law! i hope my illness will fly away soon!!and ls baby!! we haven met!!hopefully boss's exams are manageable! hope to meet up soon and i really really wan and hope every single one of them can go macau and hk next year!but still far..deciding on jan..til then...aunt fong!!are u still following my blog??how have u been??missing u like hell!!and also darling madelene and baby justin!!
haven got to see him!!meet up online soon!!!muacks!!
haven been feeling too well for the past few days.down with terrible sore throat, flu and fever. but fever subsided and here comes cough.mom asked me to take h1n1 jab.. maybe later..it was nice celebrating nigel's bdae at shokudo..my first time there but i think the price is terribly being marked up.missing those days... he was suggesting we go genting but genting 3 times in a yr is boring... =(hopefully one day everyone can meet up tgt once again!met up with him and shirley at 730pm at the coffe shop off kent's place..he was driving and he picked us up! =)supposed to go bradell for botak jones and so i wore a tee shirt with a shorts.was thinkin if i should put make up.lucky i did cos when we boared the car, he was suggesting town!planned for quite some time and we decided heeren waraku but a last min change to shokudo.boss must be pissed cos we changed venue for FOUR times. hahahaai was the one who was worst dressed!! hahahaacos shirley came from town and nigel wore quite alright. gosh. hahaha but nvm..lucky they drove...had a super full dinner..then to coffee club for mud pie cos nigel had complimentary desert with a beverage.ordered a mango tango, a ice la-teh and mud pie.sinful! 2 mudpie in a week! =Sfattening!wanted to surprise nigel with his small cake but then coffee club wanted to charge us 10 bucks for outside cake.so ridiculous! its not as if we din order their things.last min decision and boss suggested we go to yishun dam to surprise him.shirley tried to stall time but failed cos boss's cash card didnt have credit.went to top up with him and then met them there.surprised that it was his first cake of the year! HAHAthough it was a mere 3hr meet up, hopefully nigel and everyone enjoyed the belated celebration.shirley and i got him a kinder joy to tease him saying that was his present.. he was shock cos it was so kiddish.then surprise 2 was the cake from sweet secret.last surprise not to be exposed yet cos he have yet to see it..met best after that at mac.she's down with flu, cough, fever and sore throat too..poor thing.. was there and her 2 frens came and then followed by shirley and ys. hahahaleft around 3+am...slept from 3am til about 530 am and couldnt sleep after that..mom took leave to go travel agent later.china trip cancelled due to flight changes and we decided to back out.the travel agency must be so disappointed cos 18 of us back out which is a big sum of money.. hahaahad breakfast with her and decided to bring bear down for a walk.been about 1.5 years since i last walked him..cos whenever i bring him down he will get too excited and will start to have asthma..so i was worried.but today he was a darling!he walked slowly and i loved walking him..he doesn't chase after other animals neither does he anyhow eat things though he is very greedy.mom hinted me to go chinatown with her later to check out about the tours with grandma.guilty for not spending enough time with them, i guess i'll jus go ahead and i need to see my skin doc soon!my skin complextion is getting bad!on the other hand, i managed to have my cravings for chong pang nasi lemak with best for supper jus now..bump into william and paul there.hahaa... catch up a little and was surprised to know all the updates. hahaaanw today is my darling husband's bdae!HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DARLING LQW!!!u brought 11 years of joy to my life.it was really nice knowing u...and im seriously glad that u r back for a year before u head back for masters!gonna meet u up for serious catch ups!! HAHA!!it was surprising that we can keep in contact for so many years!same pri sch and sec sch.. then to different poly and university.though we seldom meet up, but we are always having endless topic when we all meet up!thanks for always being there and i'll celebrate ur bdae for u soon!been AN EXTREMELY LONG TIME SINCE WE WENT OUT for shopping..we used to do that EVERY SINGLE WEEK in sec school!! HAHAAalright.. waitin to catch up with u in the later part of the week!!hope u will enjoy ur 21st bdae alright?!so many frens are returnin from aussie this month! =)and i haven met up with my gals.my ls baby, angela and sl!
HAHA!! been really busy but soon soon yeah?!im worried...hopefully i can maintain...i really wan to help her and for myself..=)give me strength that i need very very much.i don wanna disappoint anyone!
mixed feelings..
darling LQW will be back so soon.
miss her so much!
i wished to have someone here with me.
helping me guiding me..
so near yet so far...
pet, cai lin, tat, glendon and michael goin for TBC soon.
hope they will have fun there.
hope to visit them on sat and mayb sun too if possible..
ls baby. where are u?
mia alrd! contact me leh!
i really really to tok to someone.
sometimes i jus ponder..
am i unreasonable?
am i the worst person on earth?
am i giving u alot of pressure?
but all i can say is, i wan the best for u and i will do anything to give u the best.
believe or not, its up to u.
i've said my piece.
things that i've kept in me for quite some time.. choosing not to tell u. but still said it out when im pissed. leavin for the states was never my intention. but sometimes i jus feel so stressed. for i feel that im the one always giving u stress. not being there when u needed support. always probbing to see if u r alright though u hated it. it takes alot of courage for me to say everything out for i know u will be pissed.
our 21st yr old dream was not fulfilled. and u even told me u agreed to bkk cos i was the one who wanted. there were so many dreams which we once listed it down. but everytime we have conflict, i see the distant getting further. sometimes its not that i choose not to listen to wat u got go to say or rather interrupt u. but u r always lookin for excuses.
i'll cont bloggin later. my bro got to take his lappy to sch. and i hope u r asleep not.
i've thought it through..
should i or should i not?
will leaving everything behind make me happy?
i don't know.
should it be the truth, i hate myself.
hate myself for being so unreasonable.
no longer feel the motivation.
i see handbrake every where.
the dream has been haunting me since end may early june til today.
9 times is really scary.
whom can i speak to?
there are so many things i would like to say.
but how to tell u?
i really donno.
if this carrys on, one day im sure i will go into depression...
its been quite some time since i seek guidance from you.
pls help me. tell me what should i do.
i dream of it again..
in fact its not the first time.
wondering if its true but it seemed so shady.
am i someone who is so unreasonable?
am i someone who is so tough to communicate with?
am i someone who is not trustable?
or rather am i even ur best fren?
til date, watever i dream either came true alrd or will come true in the form of dejavu.
for i am usually quite accurate with ppl closer to me like you.
i jus hope you will be happy truely.
i've really came to senses knowing how bad a fren am i to u.
for i know im the worst fren always quarrelling with u, giving u pressure and have been owning u alot of bdae gifts.
i have not been understanding enough.
always blaming you for EVERY single minor thing.
sorry that i kept probing u when i feel u r troubled.
that's because 'm really worried and kan chiong over you.
sorry darling fren..
my sincere apologies.
but all i can say is i really appreciate and love u as my fren, in fact my family.
sorry for leaving ur place so suddenly..
wanted to leave ard 2pm but i jus couldnt take it anymore.
i woke up in fear ard 9+am when i received a text.
couldn't fall asleep at all and im 80% sure what i dream will either come true or came true alrd.
to you, u insisted i know nothing at all..
but well..
i've seen many of such things before..
goin true with them before..
but i hope if wat i dream every come true, let me know.
let me be there with u.
for i know be it good or bad times, i wan to be by ur side supporting you as my best fren.
maybe u find it hard to ccommunicate with me.
i donno y, but others communicated very well with me.
be it of any gender, we are all very open and im immuned to it..
im angry. angry that the both of us are never open.
when we have darkest secret, we don share.
i may nag alot.. but i mean no harm..
how i wished there's someone who understand.
sorry my dear fren..
sorry for everything of me.
sorry for leaving my people with u all of a sudd.
for i know myself im the worst creature on earth.
i should be more understanding.
im sorry.
dear father lord,
i hope you will guide me along.
are u signaling me to do smt?
guide me pls.
thank you.
amen.
=) everything is solved.spoke and settled things nicely.this is the way i would like to solve things. =)hahabest fren justin is so nice.thanks for ur encouragement over msn at such an hr.i will do my best and then follow wat u told me to do so.haven been meetin my holy sun.HAHA. aunty when u meeting me huh? HAHAA
it feels so nice to meet them once again.but the clique is incomplete.sigh.dinner at casuarina curry.wow. ex leh. hhaaabut its the company that matters.catch up quite abit. hahahaaaupdating each other.boss.. rem to eat IMU 6 ok?
its really for your own good. =)
exams are coming..u cannot afford to fall sick.u r the pillar of every single one.the center of influence.hahahaa.. and rem to use atom power.sometimes i donno how to communicate with you.heard feedbacks.its the last few days.the period of time when i needed the most support frm you.but yet i doubt you can fulfill it.sigh.is it that hard?haven the past 7 months been torturing?enough of quarrels and arguments.but when will all these come to an end?is it really that tough?i really don wan to have the pms every single month with you.but it takes two hands to clap.
FUCK OFF AND DIE.I WILL POP A BOTTLE OR A DOZENS OF CHAMPAGNE ON YOUR FUNERAL.
