Thursday, March 25, 2010

feeling so down..
cant slp cos alot of things runnin across my mind..
also waitin for an email to come in...
been browsing through handbells in youtube these few days.
i would say its a form to vent my frustration..
felt so disappointed last night and jus brushed dua pao king off last night.
felt so bad and tried making it up today but still i failed terribly.

after listening and lookin at how each and everyone enjoy bells, i started to cool down..
don start questioning me..
i know im not a music person but i jus love bells and chimes..
the sound of it is almost perfect..

am extremely angry with myself..
did i really put in my 100% this time??
i guess i didnt.. but i knew i really tried..
it was only on wed when boss said its 9 more days to the end of sales month which really woke me up..
was so worried and somehow at some moments i really wanted to give up so much..
but i knew i couldnt..

am so grateful towards my sister amanda lim, my bro jason ng, andy quek and glendon..
o yes not missing out mummy sue ann, daddy max and fabian...
also consultant jamie for how she always advise me when im fighting..
w/o them.. i would have given up long time ago..
almost every single night andy would encourage me..
when i was about to give up glendon will also remind me not to!
the perfect couple will always be there to hear me rant and help me out!
u guys rocks to the max man!

however recently im so angry with this perfect fren of mine...
angry might not be the word..
disappoint should fit it so nicely..
but well, i've learn to take it nice..
trainin to control my emotions tho recently i cant keep my cool.
but somehow i felt a tinge of happiness when i knew smt was wrong..
in a bad way, i would say its kama..
in the nice way i would say its part and parcel of life..

and im really missin dearest aunt fong alot...
missing baby madelene too..
and i cant wait to meet justin my darling!
hopefully u guys will be back durin my holidays and i SWEAR i will KEEP ALL MY TIME FOR U peeps!
i don wish to see u guys only once in 7 yrs and i'll make wat i say come true!
jus for ur sake and for me to see u more often!
u r the one and only in the family whom i dare to share about my things!

dont stay in hotel even if u r comin back as a family of 4..
u can take russell's room and if needed my room too! HAHAHAA
so long as we can stay near each other for the period when u r back everyone will be happy esp grandma! hahaaa
but dont come back for only 10 days.. too short =((
hopefully by then i have my license.. hahahaha

anw met up with darling cathy jus now for coffee at starbucks..
cal back its been more than a yr since i really sat down and chat with her..
it all started when i started to get busy with biz and then goin on short getaway trips.
nice catchin up and im glad we can still tok so much!
hahahaa and my dear i hope u give a serious consideration about wat i told u!
hahaha help u all the way lar!
and my dear nutty is so cute!!
barkin in the car!! first time i ever seen a dog barking in car!! HAHA
and thanks for the ride home!
LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP my dear! HAHAA

posted by RaChEw @ Thursday, March 25, 2010 0 Comments

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

extremely disappointed in you.
u knew the urgency yet u tried to fake ignorance.
looking for excuses every now and then.
dont u ever dare look for me again when u need help..
i SWEAR i will never help u and i wont be soft hearted anymore!
bye then.

posted by RaChEw @ Tuesday, March 23, 2010 0 Comments

Sunday, March 07, 2010

i donno what happened to you.
but i know somehow its a big blow to u.
else u wont do such a thing..
or maybe i jus didnt get to see the fiery temper of u for the past months..
when u feel more comfortable then u share with us ba..
but hope u are alright

once again...
sudd i miss handbell and handchimes again!
im not a music person but bells and chimes are simply to diff to resist!
i still rem extremely clearly those days which were at least 10 yrs back! HAHAHA
hopefully grandma wins money in casino!!
i didnt get to go! but well.. even if i go i cant gamble with mom there. hahahaa

anw goin to penang with classmates.
quite a no of ppl and the flight is damn cheap!
hahaha got a shock when chloe called.
but well.. been a yr since i joined them.
first yr to genting and kl and it was a blast!
last yr couldnt join them to kl and sunway lagoon cos was fightin for rm..
this yr may to penang! =))

ARGH!!!
alot on my mind!

posted by RaChEw @ Sunday, March 07, 2010 0 Comments

Friday, March 05, 2010

happy birthday to both of my dearest aunts!
the care and concern that they gave me is like my mom!
love them to the max and i really miss u aunt fong!

went over to cass's new house!
wow fucking nice and big i tell u!
there's even a lift in it and there are 4 stories!

however when im home, sudd felt weird.
donno what had happened..
hoping everything is fine for you..

and hopefully things will turn out fine.
alot of work to do but well, hopefully..
after read it, having a very heavy heart with mixed feelings..
hmmm....
family is goin overseas tml and i decided to sacrifice it...

really hoping march will be my month.
are you at my side?

sometimes i feel so pissed off with people.
why are they so fuckin stubborn that they do not care about their future?
why do they not want to leave their comfort zone and be the 5% to work hard for their future?
why do they ever wan to be an employee forever?
argh u people FUCK OFF!

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, March 05, 2010 0 Comments