RaChEw

i remembered old man sayin u will be more free after 20 aug..
but seems like you were free only on mon cos u were on mc.

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, August 27, 2010 0 Comments

argh. fuck it.
i wonder who is the traitor!
actually saw it in the afternoon but wasnt so pissed.
had the cant b bothered feeling.
but when i jus finished my proj atd 1.30am, i felt damn pissed.
ss was asleep and so was sister cos she texted me til halfway nv reply..
so think she's asleep since it was so late alrd.
and sudd tot of boss.
text him n he wasnt asleep..
so called him n rant for a while..
ahahaha thanks for all the lame things u said!
LOL
jiayou for ur proj submission too!

i would say ppl have eyes to see..
heart to feel.
the way u sms them, most were skeptical.
but replied u since u didnt give any trouble.
all jus waitin to see smt.

i left office ppl out of myself other than those who left tgt with me.
but somehow ppl contacted me themselves one by one..
telling me more things.
and how they felt..
n was shock to know ppl whom i din expect to leave, left.
i don usually reply ppl from office.
unless is ppl whom i think can trust.
anw fuck it.

i tot i wouldnt be affected by u.
but y am i still affected?
mayb 7yrs was a really long one.
and u were one special close fren of mine, a sister.
whom i was so much closer to as compared to my family.

however money spoils everything.
this was the main reason i told u i wanted to decline u..
but u assured nth will happen..
and yet such things happen..
sigh.. expected..
money is still the root of evil.
we are jus slaves of money.

of cos i was disappointed to have found out abt the lies.
and now im wondering who's the traitor who told u.
of cos im suspicious of 2 ppl.
but well.. like wat boss told me, its normal n fair to get said by u too.
so i shouldnt bother..

small gas ghost!
i need to tok to u!!!!
why are u always so busy! =(
don come lookin for me unless u wan/need smt!!!
i will hate u for life!!!!

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, August 27, 2010 0 Comments

wow.. so amazing i attend 8.30 lesson!
hahahhaa but of cos i was late!
hahahaa
anw recently quite down on luck.
need some luck cos somethings is jus not within my control.
and sometime it suck to be the middle person..
cos i donno how to make both sides happy..
sigh..

mon went to sch for proj and skipped lesson cos i needed to remove stitches..
on my way to mt e, ss called and asked if i wanted his cpu.
cos he is gettin a new one so might as well pass me his current one cos its still quite new.
so surprised tt he din work hahaha and got to know he was on mc.. LOL
and removing of stitches only took like 5 mins!
so damn fast and im super amazed again.
hahhaa tot it will be slightly painful with some blood..

went to simlim to meet him..
but when i reached, he's done..
cab back to his place n he was fixing it while i was watchin my hk drama..
LOL and one of the parts was spoilt..
went back to sim lim to exchange n back to his place to install his com.
total i watched 2 hk and 1 jap show.
hero.. so many movies in a day! hahaaa
home sweet home ard 2.30am..
and i conclude my day as 5mins day cos everything was like 5min 5min. LOL

tue and wed was work..
nth much tho.. ahhahaa

oh as i was blogging, NEA ppl came to my hse to check..
my blk got 2 ppl have dengue fever
omg.. scary!
hope my neighbours are all well!
and i jus felt like sayin...
sister and the rest! when are we all meeting?!
tml for the fair? HAHAA

and i hate it when i decided to take a step back, u will take a step forward.
and then once again im wavering..
hate it real much!
maybe i should put a fullstop!

posted by RaChEw @ Thursday, August 26, 2010 0 Comments

KNN!!!! i jus realised u really love lying..
after being in that trade for near 2 yrs, u lie without blinkin ur eyes.
omfg! im so fucking disgusted by you!
how could u ever say that of him?!
u were the one at fault and not him!
i jus feel so pek chek when u blame him when he's the super nice guy!
argh fuck u man!

going to school in awhile..
have not been sleepin well recently..
today was weird..
had both good and bad dreams..
good dreams i was quite happy but not sure if it was also a dream in my dream cos i dream tt how nice if some people whom i wan to be there be there tooo..
LOL

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, August 20, 2010 0 Comments

didnt have a good night sleep..
somethings happened and im so worried now..
hopefully everything will be fine..
and im so gonna get screwed by them., argh...

i guess it must be after much talkin with kent last night, she and tt bastard came into my dream once again.
this time scenario was weird.
this time i was being very sarcastic and she was being very nice.
mayb jus up for another show luh..
but i was very sarcastic to tt bastard.
i jus wished he was dead. LOL
anw somethings which boss said was true..
and i finally see it in his point of view. hahaa

anw my smlj sis is getting engage on sept!!
happy for u darling!!!
i tot u were playin a prank on me lor...
hahahahaaa
and est, i hope u r doing fine =))

posted by RaChEw @ Thursday, August 19, 2010 0 Comments

finally after 3 days of rest, decided to head out of house..
cos was so damn bored..
sis dropped me a text n was passing by yishun so met her for awhile..
she had her dinner while we caught up..
its always so nice to chat with her.. hahahaaa

then to bishan to meet ly..
she treated me to koi..
hehe thanks darling!!
when i got more money i will not forget about u. hahaa

when i was abt to go home i decided to call kent the boss!
been so damn long since i last seen him!
everytime when i go to bishan, he will come to my mind cos we use to meet up so often last yr!
hahahaaa and so since he was slacking, he came out to meet me for a short catch up!
he went to mac to have his supper and he told me he finally put on 3kg!
congrats boss! hahahaa

finally get to speak to him..
talk about quite a few things and watever he said was quite true la.
im glad he's 99% recovered hahahaa!!
and gossip about him! LOL!!!
boss if u r reading must update me hor!!
u know wat i mean!
hahahaa din stay quite late..
spoke to him for abt 2hrs n i went home cos wanted to catch the last train n he has sch tml..
hopefully we can bring dogs out one day!!

was kinda last min meet up n so shirley was abt to slp..
so she didnt manage to join us..
hahaa next time next time!!

indian called and told me the bad news..
sigh.. called sister immediately but couldnt reach her..
then called ss and as usual.. missing in action..
cant u jus reply a simple sms??
sometimes i really feel like jus ignoring u!!!
ARGH!!! FUCK U FUCK U!!!

posted by RaChEw @ Thursday, August 19, 2010 0 Comments

why are u always gone with the wind?
come and so as and when u like..
argh!! hate u la!!!

posted by RaChEw @ Wednesday, August 18, 2010 0 Comments

fuck you!
really! fuck off will you?
knn damn fucking pissed with u.
i was at my lift abt to go down when u told me u haven reach.
and less than 10mins later u told me u put the stuffs outside my door.
asked me to pass him when im runnin a fever and having test on mon.
well done and thanks for all these shit man!

and even tryin to be sarcastic..
saying that particular sentence ending with a "?!".
told bro about it and he told me most likly must be that bastard who used ur hp to type it again.
which i tot so too..

i tot u might jus be nice n get it n then go off..
but i was wrong.
so damn wrong!
so like wat ppl always say..
so long as we are no longer there, we r not frens anymore.

initially i was contemplating..
wanted to decline.. but still deep inside me there was this tiny winy sound telling me to go pass u personally..
wanted to ask sis before agreeing but i see the timin it was so late..
so gave it a miss.. called daughter instead..
and now i can say i fuckin regret.
anw i think its the end.
you're fucking not goin to affect me anymore!
mark my words!
thanks for spoiling my day, my mood for studyin!
what a nice 'used to be' fren.

anw thanks bro for the short chat!
ahahahaa u really made me felt so much better!!
shall we?? shall we??
hari raya haji is coming SOON!
i feel like leh..... HAHAHAHHAAAA

small gas ghost..
where are you now?
bet u r still partying away now..
i need you badly now!!
you r the only one who can help me think of ways to retaliate and cool me down instantly!
im sorry but still........ i really have the mental block cos of the 3 main reasons again!!!
whahahhaahhahahaaaa

posted by RaChEw @ Saturday, August 14, 2010 0 Comments

down with a bad bad flu..
fever fluctuating, sore throat and dry cough is killing me.
plus proj submissions and test are jus round the corner and bills have yet to be settled.
FML man.
screw everything!
and im quite sure she will be texting me to rush for it once again.
sigh. i dont uds why did i ever allow such things to happen to me man.
fuck.

anw finally on tue had a good chat with small gas ghost.
i know its damn tough but im glad u understand.
time definitely plays a huge factor in watever we have discussed and so jus let time prove it yep?
and really. sometimes somethings are better to be answered in other forms of communication.
im sorry for all that have happened for the past 3 weeks.
no longer taking the initiative to contact you as much i used to do so..
for all the reasons which i listed..

of cos i do uds where u r coming from..
but well.. i guess i jus need time to accept the reality.
haha.. next decision?
hmmm.. mayb u should b the one making it?
ahaha... anw.. all the best for biz next week!

had a great catch up with mummy over the phone last night..
super love her.
tho i've not been ard for almost 3mths, she's still so nice..
calling me here n there jus to ask how have i been..
catchin up with each other lives and sometimes asking about daddy..
so glad she enjoyed her trip..

if i have money, i will wan to travel with her one day!
pure shopping trip!
hahahaa.. did not manage to meet up as planned for this week cos she went overseas and i was sick.
plus all the submissions and test..
mayb next month cos now its mid month which means she's gonna get busy real soon.
tho u donno my blog, jus wanna say i love u mummy! =D

anw im so glad to know aunt fong might be back in sg next yr!
praying very hard to be during the cny period!
sure to take out ALL my time for her, madelene and justin!
hope to hear good news soon aunt!!
love ya tonnes!!!
my grad trip will be the states!!!
will be visiting sister and jason and mayb travel with them a little then over to houston to stay for a period of time!!!

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, August 13, 2010 0 Comments

happy belated birthday to singapore!
what a good way to celebrate sg!
i spent national day in jb!
hahahhaaa.. yes super broke so we went for a budget trip.. hahaa
only swipe card for my darling daughter's contact lens which she can use for god damn long!!
min one yr!

we were supposed to go for a roadtrip since fri night til tml..
but sis and me were so broke n we decided to call it off..
even sat's jb trip..
but somehow we managed to dig out some ringgit from last time and went for a food trip!
our main motive is to get our ass out of sg and jus spend time not thinkin about work but jus relaxing..
how i wish shirley tag along too!
and she will definitely somehow recognise the way to the seafood place which we used to patronize!

the best thing is when we all met up in the morning, sis and i were havin bad sore throat.
loving my nails so much and cant wait to let her see it tml at office and shirley!!
i bet shirley will say whaaaaaaaaaaaaa... hahahaa
had dinner and we were discussing about our plans as usual..
hahaha.. we seem to have so many plans cos we love love love travelling..
but the best part is money is still the root of evil.. sigh..

just hoping everything will be fine cos im so damn fucking broke..
need the customers to approve and i'll be the happiest gal on earth..
ahaha u guys need not know what im talking abt.. LOL

anw sat met up with dearest jessica and roy!!
wow!! been god damn long since i see jess!
she got a spare tic to YOG..
both of us went to watch it while roy went shopping..
nothing special.. jus felt its quite similar to ndp.. hahaa
desserts thereafter and home sweet home..
the bus uncle was a little crazy tho.. machiam driving crazy taxi.. hahaa

and i realise recently i seem to miss alot of ur msg..
u tend to contact me in the super wee hours of the morning when im asleep..
when i reply u dont, when u reply i dont.
sigh.. hate such things..
and i was so surprise to see ur call once again when im in malaysia... =D
small gas ghost.. hahahaa
im so gonna change ur name to tt in my phone!!

sometimes its not i don wan to answer ur question..
but i jus donno how to..
im sorry.. but i really don wan to avoid ur ques..
jus tt i really donno how should i ans.. and so i chose the coward way once again..
take care and all the best for next week!

posted by RaChEw @ Tuesday, August 10, 2010 0 Comments

i feel like a worm!
fever came back and i decided to give sch a miss.
jess text me askin if i wanna go yog with her on sat.
if im not goin to jb with sister, jason and andy i'll go!
we were supposed to go on a roadtrip lor!
just tat we are all too tight on budget..
sigh!

having mix feelings about life now.
love it cos i don have to worry anymore things about office and i have more time for myself and my frens..
and that i found a bunch of lovely people.
and found 2 people whom i can really talk everything under the sun!

hate it cos i don have sufficient funds to settle everything.
hate it cos i lost a great sister, a great buddy whom i tot i could rely on during my worst period of my life.
i couldnt blame her for what people term her as 2 headed snake.
cos when she's alone, we all know she means no harm but when she's with the fucker, she became a scary monster.

i admit defeat for the battle with him.
he succeed in creating shit in the friendship, adding poisoning her and jip her til the extend of her nasty attitude which made me and the rest backfire.
but well, for everything you did, you say and you plot, i accept it..
for i know god will arrange karma to people who deserve it.
i've master the way of letting go and im so proud of myself!
=D

posted by RaChEw @ Thursday, August 05, 2010 0 Comments

hmmm.. i was a little caught back when i realised she still reads my blog.
mayb b'cos she had spare time at home then?
i donno how far u read and how u felt.
2 possibilities.
1st, to be extremely pissed or secondly to be damn disappointed.
cos i know myself somethings i said were harsh.
but well, mostly are true feelings of myself and mayb a little here n there of others.

series of events happening.
a surprise party for dee with the rest..
hahaa and she was really surprised.
gave her a good bdae bash with a nice chocolate mouse onto her face..
hahaha anw hope she enjoyed it. =D

meet up with lqw and her sis last fri..
was a last min decision..
qing's idea and there were so many laughters.
its been quite some time since we laughed so happily together!!
gay was supposed to join but his grandpa got hospitalised..
home sweet home after that!
will meet up with cassie after qing comes back from her mission trip!

met up with gay for dinner on sat.
passed him his skin care products and hopefully he is using it obediently man!
chat quite abit and of cos as usual, we have tonnes of topics..
he accompanied me to do my stuffs and chat til my dad came over to pick me up..
he even suggest going overseas tgt and its so unbelievable! LOL
told him to join us for our trip if we all have sufficient money then! hahaa

sun met ly darling..
wow.. the night before i spent a good 9hrs cleaning up my room.
god damn tired but satisfied with how clean my room is now!
bet bear feels so much comfortable!
dinner with ly over at bishan s11..
and after tt headed over to amk mac to meet nicole baby!
slack til ard 12 and went home!

wisdom tooth had been givin me prob since fri..
and i finally see a doc on mon..
was on 5 days mc due to the fever and sore..
hahaha
and so i surprised dee on mon!
with the help of my crime in partner who is her mom!

tue met up with sister, tat and andy..
we were out discussing some stuffs but francis our main lead wasnt around!
and so we were damn lost! HAHA
all of us were over at JD except tat and we met him up at the food court.
had dinner and after tt received a call from old man askin if i wanna meet him at amk mac..
was duper late! sorry sorry!! HAHA and he wanted to fine me $2 for every min late!
so bad!

accompanied him for dinner but i din eat..
so full and went over to his void deck to chit chat..
almost tempted to go up and stay over cos i was so tired but i know i definitely wont be able to wake up by 6 to go home!
so i rejected him..
he suggested tonight but i cant cos i have early mornin lesson tml..
and so i told him mayb thus night..
shall see how...
i wanna watch my shows! HAHA
im sorry but sometimes i really think its not the time to ans ur questions!
so i tried to avoid. =(

and so today at work i received a text.
i really told myself not to reply.
but someone told me to do so..
cos i have been tryin to be strong but whenever i receive texts from her, i admit i always waiver!
i donno wat to say neither how to feel when i saw the text..
for i know everything in tweeter..
i really donno..
dilemma..
can someone give me an answer?
i think its really the end.

posted by RaChEw @ Wednesday, August 04, 2010 0 Comments

argh!!! fuck u!!!
fuck it!!!
maybe i shouldnt even bother!
shouldnt even bother if u have enough money to survive!
its not that i dont understand!
its just nobody knows and u cant tell people!
and so im jus super worried!
and u say i sounded as if u were in the wrong!
but i know u r not!
i am just worried for you understand?
u gundu!
i hate u!!

posted by RaChEw @ Tuesday, August 03, 2010 0 Comments