RaChEw

ss returned my call when i jus reached yishun.
hahaha else i might jus go and collect my stuffs from him..
wtf i almost laughed throughout the whole conversation.
and he made me dream of havin a really close fren passing away!
WTF!!! it was part of our convo cos he said when we die then we'll know how nice he is actually treating me. LOL
WTH!!! whahahhahaaaa

anw i need motivation!!!
can someone jus grant me some?! HAHA
i realised i cant study when im home.
i absorbe more when i meet darling ls to study!
hahaha i cant wait for steamboat lor..
miss those days where we had alot of jokes and laughters! hahahaa

anw had a convo with sis today..
damn pissed off with her (of cos not sis)...
well, she blamed me for brainwashin everyone to leave.
but since she thinks tt way and i believe she told the whole world tt, i cant be bothered to explain and argue back with her..
n like wat we expected, she don even dare to meet us to clarify..
cos by then the truth will be out.

saying is cos of A's case tt's y i left.
sayin i pushed all responsibility.
but it was her who told me to let her handle.
not to answer anyone's call..
i have all the evidence in my phone.
even if my phone was changed, i still have it cos its all backed up in my com n lappy.

telling people what kinda person i am.
saying i talk bad abt her.
well, if she really treated us like human and appreciate us as frens, she would also still make the effort to salvage the situation.
like wat py told me, im only worth $500 in her eyes.
i was so blinded. always thinkin she treated me sincerly as a best fren but well.. i guess im wrong..
i did not even brainwash anyone..
sis finally felt the way of how u treated her..
if u were sincere or not.. and so she knew..

trina n yy.. i told them not to leave.
but it was u who forced them by asking someone to GS and not explainin wat is it all abt.
where it was announced eric was fightin for his rd tt month.
we all knew u would shift..
anw sayin all these r redundent..
i thank god we all knew the truth.. the true colors.

my mouth might be bad and smelly.
but most of the times i only said things out of anger.
and when i said this is it. my heart is dead.
everyone told me i will go back being friends with u..
but well, i guess its pointless..
since u r so blinded by love..
like wat we all feel.. whatever we do, no matter how nice we treat u, u still do things cos of jackson.

u treated us damn nice when we were still active.
cos we were there helpin him to generate an income.
u might say its bullshit..
but like someone always tell us.. how come we r so stupid to help him with his lotus monthly?
it was wat this someone told me for many many months that finally woke me up..
slowly i heard more people telling me that..
and i finally understood.

anw this post was a random one.
jus felt damn pissed after the conversation with sister.
if u think im so good at bringin people away, thn i would have succeed long time ago cos im such a good influencer.
hahaha... but well.. u r wrong..
thats y god gave human 2 eyes. some even 4!
to let them see clearly of every friend they made!
and also 2 ears for them to listen carefully to ur words where u pushed all responsibility to sister!

FUCK! im god damn pissed!
but well, i should be looking forward!!
meeting dearest sister, jason and daughter tml evening!!
glendon couldnt join cos he finishes work at 7!!
and there's always heavy jam at sixth ave!!
missing u guys including andrew and trina!!!

posted by RaChEw @ Wednesday, September 29, 2010