RaChEw

my mind is in a mess..
a great mess...
when all the suspecious thoughts came to the next level, things went out of hand.
and the truth finally surfaced affter 4 months..
seriously if i were him, i would have commit sucided..
i wouldnt be as strong as how he hung on til date.
with all the constant pressures from every single one of us..

im glad john was there to help.
he took alot of initiative to organise the meetings.
we din wan trouble.. we jus wanted to gather everyone to see how we could help him..
but we definitely need thr truth..
and on thus night, the truth was finally out..
i couldnt remain my cool..
and of cos i gave him a trashin at amk mac..

yes i was angry..
i was angry how come he kept the truth from us for so damn long..
but thinkin back, it took him alot of courage..
tears and disappointed faces all surfaced..
but im glad he is doing smt to salvage the situation..

old man was there too..
in fact he was there on both days when i was about to break down.
tue night when i was really down, i went over to his new place and told him i didnt paid my fees..
wed night he came over to amk for dinner but had to wait for 2 hrs for me cos we were havin the meeting..
told him everything and seeked for solutions..
sigh....

sometimes i really wished i didnt drag darling ls and cousin into this situation..
really disappointed but i really hope he will be strong.
after all these are settled, im sure our friendship will go to the next level..
hang on.. all of us will hang on tight tgt as one!

when ss offered to help, i really donno wat to say..
i told him all the reasons as to why i didnt wan him to help..
sigh....... where are you????????

posted by RaChEw @ Sunday, December 05, 2010