when i saw it, somehow i had a mixture of feelings.
feelin happy that truth is out yet worried quarrel might occur cos it was meant to be a secret.
read it and the more i feel like havin a good talk with her.
sigh. why on earth must u come into the picture?
i really hope u never existed or rather hoping everything was jus a nightmare.
everything was once so perfect til u came into the picture.......
dearest bestie, i wish to have a good talk to uds the situation and not hide things from me. of cos i would do my best to uds and i hope we really can have the good chat. =D
dearest good fren whom i always call boss, i seriously hope to help u. i feel for you. the emptiness in u and wat really wanted. there are things i would like to share with u but i jus cant... i hope thiings will be fine....
as for a good fren whom i call brother.. i donno y u came into the picture.. after tt i cant help but to treat u nasty. cos i felt real bad. there are also things which i really wanted you to know.. but i jus cant.. bias? yes i am. but cos boss is really someone whom i would like to keep for life as a good fren and the other 2.
don assume wat am i sayin. if u donno, don ask. don jump into conclusion.
donno wat to blog but jus feel like blogging.hmmm....
sometimes when i see u at office, i jus don feel like talkin to u.
jus seem tt things are a little weird.
of cos u r not at fault.
its me! WHAHAHAHA
but well...
hmmm.. i feel wat shirley said was true to michy.
dearest readers, pls don think too much of wat i've blogged.
cos one sentence may not refer to onli one person.
it may have many meanings behind it and USUALLY tis is the case! HAHA
exams are nearing day by day.donno wat should i do.so many things on my to do list.gotta check out other schools.hahahahaa...really glad.my mom been really supportive.she recommended some clients to me.she called me n motivated me.wow my mom can even motivate me! WHAHAHAHA!feel like goin on a holiday with frens.oh dear. i went genting in jun and aug.oct is comin and calvin actually asked us to go again with his frens.but of cos not goin.quite bored of it but well, i do miss the big small table.WHAHAHAHHAABKK!! HK! HOUSTON!! LA!! PARIS!! when are we goin to these places darlings?!SOON?! within the next 3 yrs?u guys better know who are u!esp gisela, shirley, jessica and holy sun!WHAHAHAHAHHA!!if possible with my clique!!i tot we were thinkin of BKK?!what happened to it?!!! WHAHAHAHAHAHAAmisses everyone! =D
oh gosh...
got into a minor accident today.
got a little shock.
and elijah was jus telling us tt he got into a minor accident 3 weeks back.
how come like tis? hmmmmmmm
back from joyce's bdae.its really nice seeing my classmates as i don get to see them often.like once in every few weeks??appreciate it alot when they will call n ask me to join for poker occasionally. =Dhalfway went to meet OOSG people.missed their company alot.had supper at bras basar dim sum.initial plan was to have seafood but it was really late and elijah was worried about the traffic.nice catch up though it was a short one cos boss got project discussion early in the mornin.really glad that everyone took the effort to meet up.but i think most of us slim down quite abit cos we din meet tt often.we used to meet so often for supper that we put on quite a bit of weight.the guys were still at joyce's place and so i headed back to meet them.elijah dropped me off since it was also at hougang.thanks boss. =Dreached home around 5.30am.din expect we'll stay out til so late but its good! =))nice catch up with people today.however will watever everyone been saying come through?hmmmm.. i doubt so.oh gosh.. how come the world is so small? if it will ever come through, i'll be really happy.all i wish for is jus a reunion.is it really tough?and oh yes.. am i really evil?how come im doin such things to harm my good fren?someone whom i will wan to keep for life.they are seriously the most impt people whom i will wan to keep with me forever.though i don express it out at all, they are the ones whom i appreciate alot.if its within my means, i'll definitely give them the best.i really need someone logical to tell me what should i do.current feeling: glad yet disappointed with myself.guide me, teach me, show me, lead me to the light..
jus fuck off and stop screwing people's life!
seriously, just leave.
is it gone for good? (nothing related to the top)
i hope not.
and now i feel like i am the worst person on earth.
am i?
why am i doin all these?
i jus wanted to help make her don feel affected.
but i unknowingly helped him.
wth am i doin?
can someone pls stab me?!
FUCK I JUST FEEL DAMN FUCKED UP!
i cant believe i would ever do that.felt as if i indirectly betrayed.but yes i miss the good food, company and them all.how i wish we can all travel during dec holidays.til then darlingsLabels: missed
day didnt ended off as bad as i tot it would.
was really disappointed cos tried to plan a meet up for so long.
e couldn't make it..
followed by s will join in late or might not be able to make it.
then by n for leavin house late.
end up he asked if he can ps.
he said he was pissed.
sigh. is it so tough to meet?
i know everyone is busy. jus tryin to plan a meet up.
its never easy.
we need 2 hands to clap.
so went dinner with k and l.
botak jones. portion so big. hahahaa
caught up a little and went home n do proj..
i jus hope everyone will put in jus a little more effort..
or should i jus not bother about it?
but each and everyone are the ones whom i would like to keep.
people whom i appreciate and treasure alot.
people whom i would like to travel and have fun with.
Labels: very unhappy
its been a month and 2 days..missed the company, the laughters, the fun, the mashroom farm food, the tea leaf egg and etc ALOT.smt seems so wrong..how come whenever we org, cant all 6 be present?is it because of the joke?this is y i hate it so much when some cannot take it and be normal.wtf.....i really really hope by the end of e yr we can all travel tgt.that's the thing motivating me workin hard now.overall week was bad. sigh.Labels: deeply missed
i kept it in me for the longest time.til i caught u on the spot and double confirmed with others.i told s on the day itself, mayb i was over sensitive.but i heard it with my own ears and i had withness.then comes the incident today.i bet u clearly forgotten everything.how come so irresponsible?im really pissed and disappointed.i swear its at my brim.yet u don even care.how great.fuck off.seriously extremely pissed.u seriously fit into the slogan of 'asian wears many mask'!FUCK!im really explodin!everyone knows me.if u treat me well, i'll gve u the best.but if u give me shit, i make sure even the slightest thing, i can make it into a huge matter.don fuckin mess with me! FUCK OFF you bastard!
woke up with a dream.
is it another sign?
i think its the 3rd or 4th time.
i think its the 4th.
oh dear..having terrible cramps.and i vomited last night after shirley left.disgusting feeling.slept for 16hrs straight.initial plan was to meet up with genting ppl.but boss was busy with proj.awwww.. how i miss each and everyone's company!their laughters and lameness.missing those days when we went for our roadtrips!
we used to meet up AT LEAST every alternate days.
we used to enter JB AT LEAST every once a week.
we used to mj AT LEAST once weekly.
we used to stay over at boss house after a tired session of mj.
we used to listen to elijah's cursing and swearing at drivers who disrupt his driving.
we used to play with nigel's hp very often!
we used to eat seafood which i missed alot!
we used to go banafair for 75 sticks of satay for 5 pax.
we used to visit the wanton mee stall for their 30 pieces of wanton!
we used to order ALOT of food as if we have not eaten for the past 3 nights.
and we have yet to visit LAS VEGAS! whahahahhahahaa
oh.. all these memorable times..
hahaha...
met them too often til when i take other ppl's car, i feel that its nothin! HAHA
as in they are not reckless.
opps.. no offence ppl. hahahaa
best and i are hoping for a taiwan/hong kong/ bangkok end of tis year with them.hopefully all 5 can make it and are interested.i hate sch. it make me stuck at no where and make me unable to meet them cos boss is EXTREMELY busy! LOL
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..............is the word.
its all because of u bastard!
very very bad days.
i had enough.
seriously.
if u think i've neglected you, so be it.
u dont even bother to uds it and start to show ur fucking temper.
how great.
yes i changed, but i believe i change for the good.
everyone see the change in me. even my mom.
bad days started on sat.
initial plan was to go FAQ session but everyone overslept.
woke up and one by one gave me attitude.
supposed to go JB for dinner.
but elijah's soccer match time was at 12am. he mistaken it.
so yeah gotta cancel.
supposed to meet for dinner with another fren end up she got delayed sayin will meet on sun.
n i think she forgotten.
on sun i asked for dinner but was nua at home.
plus i gotta mug so ok nvm.
followed by night i got attitude probs by people.
nvm.
this mornin. best.
i got screwed.
i fuckin hate it.
like seriously. i think my limit reached the brim.
even in sch i got the fucked up attitude.
cb. late for paper.
how great.
day got better as i went to mount a to visit lala's sis n baby owen.
then to john's place for poker.
but when i reached home, i saw smt which i hated most.
maybe cos my mood was bad.
so i was very affected.
and im not gonna reply.
fuck.
cb.
fuck off pls!
