ss returned my call when i jus reached yishun.
hahaha else i might jus go and collect my stuffs from him..
wtf i almost laughed throughout the whole conversation.
and he made me dream of havin a really close fren passing away!
WTF!!! it was part of our convo cos he said when we die then we'll know how nice he is actually treating me. LOL
WTH!!! whahahhahaaaa
anw i need motivation!!!
can someone jus grant me some?! HAHA
i realised i cant study when im home.
i absorbe more when i meet darling ls to study!
hahaha i cant wait for steamboat lor..
miss those days where we had alot of jokes and laughters! hahahaa
anw had a convo with sis today..
damn pissed off with her (of cos not sis)...
well, she blamed me for brainwashin everyone to leave.
but since she thinks tt way and i believe she told the whole world tt, i cant be bothered to explain and argue back with her..
n like wat we expected, she don even dare to meet us to clarify..
cos by then the truth will be out.
saying is cos of A's case tt's y i left.
sayin i pushed all responsibility.
but it was her who told me to let her handle.
not to answer anyone's call..
i have all the evidence in my phone.
even if my phone was changed, i still have it cos its all backed up in my com n lappy.
telling people what kinda person i am.
saying i talk bad abt her.
well, if she really treated us like human and appreciate us as frens, she would also still make the effort to salvage the situation.
like wat py told me, im only worth $500 in her eyes.
i was so blinded. always thinkin she treated me sincerly as a best fren but well.. i guess im wrong..
i did not even brainwash anyone..
sis finally felt the way of how u treated her..
if u were sincere or not.. and so she knew..
trina n yy.. i told them not to leave.
but it was u who forced them by asking someone to GS and not explainin wat is it all abt.
where it was announced eric was fightin for his rd tt month.
we all knew u would shift..
anw sayin all these r redundent..
i thank god we all knew the truth.. the true colors.
my mouth might be bad and smelly.
but most of the times i only said things out of anger.
and when i said this is it. my heart is dead.
everyone told me i will go back being friends with u..
but well, i guess its pointless..
since u r so blinded by love..
like wat we all feel.. whatever we do, no matter how nice we treat u, u still do things cos of jackson.
u treated us damn nice when we were still active.
cos we were there helpin him to generate an income.
u might say its bullshit..
but like someone always tell us.. how come we r so stupid to help him with his lotus monthly?
it was wat this someone told me for many many months that finally woke me up..
slowly i heard more people telling me that..
and i finally understood.
anw this post was a random one.
jus felt damn pissed after the conversation with sister.
if u think im so good at bringin people away, thn i would have succeed long time ago cos im such a good influencer.
hahaha... but well.. u r wrong..
thats y god gave human 2 eyes. some even 4!
to let them see clearly of every friend they made!
and also 2 ears for them to listen carefully to ur words where u pushed all responsibility to sister!
FUCK! im god damn pissed!
but well, i should be looking forward!!
meeting dearest sister, jason and daughter tml evening!!
glendon couldnt join cos he finishes work at 7!!
and there's always heavy jam at sixth ave!!
missing u guys including andrew and trina!!!
"You were never supposed to mean this much to me; I was never supposed to fall so hard. But you know what? I did and that's the truth, that's what keeps me holding on because it hurts like hell to let you go."
ITS AN IMPROMPTU LONG POST!
sometimes i wonder how u became so strong..
it really surprised me alot..
tho we donno each other in person, i've heard so much about u from so many people..
5 years is neither too long nor too short..
and i see u taking it so well tho in ur blog u has emo posts, it was like 1/10?
damn admire u man my dearest gurl! =)
i believe u deserve someone so much better!
really...... he is not worth for a single drop of ur tear anymore...
for there r things which u donno but i know....
cos i still have my sources...
i wish u all the best and may u become stronger as days goes by! =)
i saw the picture of a rabbit on a random fb acc..
reminds me so much of my bling bling rabbit which i left at small gas ghost's hse...
haven got a chance to get it back..
how saddening..
and sometimes i wonder......
if i should jus leave it there n jus leave forever.........
sometimes like wat a fren told me, it seems like god send u a msg..
and u will appear again...
and im really pissed off...
really.... sometimes i really wonder how come u changed completely...
to become so superficial...
really... sometimes it jus hurts to know u've lost someone so close to u..
but well... sometimes in life we jus gotta learn how to let go...
and im really glad i found many close ones..
of cos i trust my dearest sister the most and we really share alot of stuffs..
mayb its because we have somehow some similar mentality in mind..
or mayb goals? for we love travelling and we can almost chat about anything..
even the darkest secret... whom i tot i will never say it out..
surprisingly i don feel as painful as how i usually do when i heard wat she said...
mayb its b'cos i've recovered..
i wouldnt say fully recovered but mayb 70%?
im not in need of many frens...
i jus need those whom are close to my heart with me will do..
they are the ones whom went through thick and thin with me..
and they are as follows... not accordingly...
sry if i missed out any... =(
dearest sister AMANDA LIM,
someone who plays a core party in my recovery..
really.. we could jus call each other using our hp and chat for more than an hr!
and really chat about anything under the sun!
smt which i've never shared with la i could jus share openly with her..
many things if people were to know, they will be really shock..
both of us found out too many ugly facts of people and the true colors of them tgt..
shopping in bkk, travelling and next will be diving!
really hopping she wouldnt leave sg but its fun to have frens overseas..
this gives me an additional excuse to travel! =)
precious daughter SHIRLEY,
somehow i must still thank her for this dearest gal...
someone whom i really hated to the core when i first knew her..
but well.. she's really a nice gal...
someone who brought lots of laughers into my life..
tho we dont hang out as often as we used to, but its always very heart warming to see her..
the smile she always carrys on her face..
and i really hope she finds someone who will treasure and love her more than she does..
for i don wan to see her tear anymore....
and i would really love to travel with her once again!
she has good sense of direction and will always help me with my food! heee...
if i ever have extra cash, i promise her next bdae present will be even better than last year's one!
darling LI YING,
my dearest..... no words can ever express how thankful i am for u..
i promise i will always be there for u whenever u need!
really... but i really hope u will learn to love urself more..
and when i have spare cash, we'll go taiwan tgt.
really! i might always scold u.. but i really hope u learn from everything..
for i dont wan u to be hurt anymore...
lao gong AMANDA LEE,
wow this darling of mine for 12 years!
we can meet like only 4 times a yr but nothing can tear us apart!
and we can have countless of topic to chat non stop!
someone who is always there for me...
not physically but mentally!
i hope nothing will drift us apart my dear!
for u r really precious to me! =)
CASSANDRA the used to be enemy,
whahahhahaa.. nice captions!
used to hate her to the core!
seriously.. but somehow one day in sec 4 during dnt lesson, we became good friends..
how amazing life can be yeah? hahahaa
tho we tok cock really alot, always look like we will kill each other anytime but we really treasure everything we have tgt..
going to her hse to play with whisky and baily and the pool is jus so fun!
of cos with my dearest lqw! heheee...
jiayou for exams and we'll have fun soon babe!
JIACHEE the gay,
hahahahaa pls don mistaken!
this is really one of my best buddy and he's totally straight.
jus tt i forgotten how his nick came about.. hahahaa
one might see him so playful but he's really someone nice to chat with..
really miss those sushi tei days.. haaa...
so far in my life, he only scared me once and it was on my bdae...
but really, thank god everything was fine..
im sure he heard all of our constant prayers..
and 3yrs will pass very soon!
and i'll be sitting ur car once again bro! =)
KENT the boss,
wow this boss here is speechless!
really... whenever i feel god damn pissed, i'll text him asking if he's asleep..
cos its usually in the wee hours..
and after sayin everything out, i'll feel so much better!
the 4 of us said we wanna go malaysia roadtrip again!
hopefully after shirley got her passport next yr yeah! hahahaa
and im glad u r 99% recovered!
really happy for u and we must really catch up real soon!
after ur exams okay!!
by then shirley n i will definitely be free! hahahahaa
JESSICA aka ah teooooooooo,
i was so touched by her text on sat when i reached home..
she wanted to offer her help but it was out of her reach..
i hope she'll stay strong too!
and im sure u can my dearest!
starbucks and salad can jus be so fun!
cant wait for all the unglam pictures! hahahhaa
next up in the list, swimming?!
CHLOE the forever so cheerful babe,
been through alot with this gal..
ups and down...
many quarrels but somehow really one of the best...
even to the extend of studyin for psle, olevels and even for uni tgt..
tho there r many things which we din share, i still wish her the best..
really..
somehow we drifted apart but there r jus so many things which i wished i could share with u...
for i guess u r one of them who really knows me well..
but i guess its impossible?? haa...
see u on fri for steamboat darl!
LI SAN my darling,
wow this babe!!!
hahahahahaaa of cos one of the closest man!!!
tho diff class le but still quite close..
i thank god i found such a precious gem in my uni life..
i hate it cos nw i cant have u to teach me for my exams and i really lost my motivation to study totally when i am in diff class with u n chloe..
but well.. this is life....
we should really travel tgt!
really! heee and im so glad u r leading a better life now!
cheers to ur current harvok lifestyle baby! =)
SUNSHINE the always special one,
haha.. im sorry.. no photo will be uploaded..
someone whom other than my dearest sister, knows everything..
every secret of mine.. the darkest secret..
but really thanks so much for always being there on my worst days..
u always knew wat to say and wat not to say in the right time..
tho i really hate some of ur characters, but i still cant help but to accept u..
missing u and the happy days we have for we seldom have time for each other..
and i really miss staying over and jus slacking watchin movies...
there r so many promised u made but were unfulfilled..
the malaysia trip, the treat, the meal u will prepare and many more..
cant rem le but if i read back my older posts, i definitely can find it..
will all these ever come through?
my buddy ANDREW & TRINA gal,
wow.. no words can express how grateful i have them in my life!
the trust they have in me...
i really hope both of u are fine and that i'll be able to hear the wedding bells in years to come! =)
those mj sessions and those days where we could jus do nth but to jus slack..
wishin u guys all the best for ur last sem in sch children!
my brothers JASON, ANDY & GLENDON
hahahahhaaa.. this 3 are the craziest!
never ending jokes when we all meet up..
esp for crab feast! hahahaa
we'll all travel tgt okay!
else we'll travel to the states to visit our dearest amanda and jason!
HASLINDA the gentle babe,
haha this babe came into my life once again after we all left..
i got a shock when i sudd received her text one evening and we started chatting..
and from then on many truth surfaced..
always encouraging one another be it for life or sch..
babe, jy for ur last sem!
hope ya grandma is recovering well! =)
ANDREA the tummy, BETTINA my dearest smlj sis and ESTHER,
hahahhahaa this 3 are one of my longest batch of colleagues!
tho we seldom meet but we are always having never ending topics whenever we meet!
pic will be up once i get it from son! hahahaa
too long the 4 of us nv take pic tgt le..
and im so happy for bett that she found her happiness!
we should really meet up soon!
LINDEE the precious gem,
my longest childhood fren whom can be considered as a family friend..
someone who was there for me at my lowest peak.
supporting me and keepin me sane by bringin me to genting!
love ya deep deep!!
we should travel more often!! hahahahhaaa
and i promise i'll be there for u whenever u need me okay! =D
dearest SUEANN mummy,
i can never express how much gratitude towards tis pretty lady here...
really miss her loads...
due to some circumstances, its been months since i last seen her and max daddy..
of cos i do miss her alot..
someone who was really there on my worst days..
keepin me sane for sure..
always guiding me with the right direction...
i jus wanna say i love u mummy! <3
of cos there are people whom are impt too..
such as angela, bing, cathay n my class guys..
but i think my post is getting long and its 5am now!
will blog again soon!
LOVES <3
WTF.
THANKS ah.
i hate such attitude.
tho there was a lol, i bet when u received my text u will know im pissed.
i think i had enough of you.
fucking hell.
had a nice chat with sister once again..
and now i uds the situation..
well, i uds how come she sudd exploded cos she waited for god damn long..
and nobody seems to be doing anything when he said he will help her.
but he doesnt seems to be replyin her quite often..
like wat i said..
god gave us 2 eyes so we can see one clearly..
people may talk and backstab us at the back, but one day they will see their true colors.
and by then things wont be nice.
i need not say, need not do much things..
cos people can see and feel for themselves if one is sincere and if im like what u said a bitch.
but well, seeing the pics on fb i do miss those days..
sometimes wondering if u r doing fine..
but i am jus wondering...
not asking people cos i think its better for both of us to go separate ways.
like wat i told sister, now we jus wanna clear all debts and free ourselves from sg!
old man i need to rant sooooooo much to u!!
cos other than sister, u r the only one who know everything!
i bet u forgotten about ur promise after 22 aug...
irritating!!!!!
taken with my iphone.. not with professional's cam.. hahaa
solemnization dinner at La ViVa spanish restaurant of my good fren bettina!!
she looked so pretty that night itself and i guessed everything went smoothly?
hahahaa was so great to catch up with all!!
cos after since dearest tummy went to shanghai and italy for studies, the 4 of us can rarely meet up..
this time was also with son..
planned to go cartel one day soon or mayb change another location..
cartel is boring! hahahaa
cant wait to see the pictures! =)
exams comin and im still feeling so slack.
always tell myself its time to study but i always lack the dumb motivation!
screw it! haaaaaa
instead, i've been watchin shows man!
love it!!! haslinda la!!!! gave me the link and i kept watching!! WHAHHAHAHAA
anw when i woke up today, i saw twitter..
donno wats wrong with her.
donno if someone offended her and wondering if she provoked my sister!
cos unless she is REALLY pissed, she wouldnt have said such things on twitter.
but i can help but to agree to this particular sentence "its one thing to earn all the money in the world n another thing to lose ur soul bcos of it"
yes, we all need money.
but i guess at least we r doing smt decent.
and im sure u people reading this post will be laughing at us cos we chose to work.
but well, this is life i guess..
and i love people around me for they appreciate who am i.
at least i dont have to wear a mask when speaking to them unlike last time.
however, i feel like i've drifted apart from ....
kinda sad but there's nothing i can do..
she's been busy working and i hope she's doing fine..
cos she has to clear her debts too..
kinda pity she is always busy working and so she cant join any of our gathering..
missing those days whereby she used to hang out with us quite often..
but my dear girl, if one day u needed any help, look for me okay?
i'll still be here, the mummy for u =)
i jus happened to see this from the link ls gave me.
so so so many meaningful quotes there!
btw i think many of of frens, relatives and myself need this..
i hope through all these obstacles, we'll all grow stronger!
we all have one another for support yeah?
love u guys!!
to those who donno whom im referring to, are mostly those i've been meetin for the past month.
those with rls prob, family prob or mayb even friendship prob..
jia you darlings!
and once again sister amanda made me feel so nice!
ha! we were on the phone from boon lay til office.
each took turns to call each other using hp cos we were out.
just got so much to update each other!
and i cant wait to meet her for dinner.
tho we work in the same co, we seldom see each other cos i work on my non sch days but shes usually out meetin clients.
so so so much updates, gossips and happiness!
ahaha! =)
but its such a pity i couldnt join them for the dive trip next month due to exams..
else i will definitely go..
but installment? ha.. i doubt so..
so many bills to clear..
so sick of it!!!
gotta slp soon!
jus reached home..
went supper with ls n indian..
to have some discussions and catch up!
hopefully all will be fine!
and i pray u will heal.....
haha! darling ls never fail to twit meaningful things on twitter.
always love to quote her cos its so damn true!
"its better to have nobody than to have someone who is half there, or doesnt want to be there"
cant help but to agree!! hahahaa
proj suck
school suck
work suck
life suck
nothing seems to be smooth.
down on luck.
and im thinkin of leaving..
i don like how it is like now.
i wan to blog.
but i donno wat to blog.
omfg.
hate such things!!!!
i have this unexplainable emotions in me!
feel like screaming!
so pek chek!
