RaChEw

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dying of boredom!

posted by RaChEw @ Monday, May 31, 2010 0 Comments

login and out of blogger quite a few times.
hesitating if i should blog..
but oh well.. look at what im doing now..

y cant u jus uds?
my load is so much heavier and u gotta pressurize me more at this pt of time.
really hate it.
tot i could jus overcome it..
but i jus couldnt..
wth is happening?
oh man..

it was a nice long chat..
i hope everything is fine for u and u r really one strong person..
making me questioning myself when can i ever be like you?
i realise smt, whenever we meet up is only at my lowest point of time..
but i nv once told u im feeling down..

and i finally uds...
but i donno if i like wat i heard tho..
but like wat i always say, the truth always hurts.
that's y i always chose not to relate it to u cos its all the past.
hahaa =)

oh can someone pls make me happy now??
i need happy happy pill..
how i wish i can jus pack my things n leave for houston to see my darlings...
or jus to leave this country for a short trip to really freshen up and sort out my thoughts.
argh... where's the happy go lucky rachel?
the forever kpkb rachel?
the one who always fights for her close fren's rights?
the one who laughts at the slightest thing?
the one who loves late night hangout with friends?
n etc...

must u really force me to my wits end?
who can i relate to?
pepper pepper... i wished u were here once again...

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, May 28, 2010 0 Comments

been thinkin these days..
if whatever things which i've been doing is right or wrong..
having alot of thoughts in my mind..
randomly, i was blog hopping and i came across this childhood fren's blog.
a family friend i would say.
read her post and find it so true.
and i feel for her. all her emotions and blamed myself for not being there many many yrs ago.
but i ponder if it will ever come true for myself one day.

there's no right or wrong to keep it from the outside world.
but when things are ready, i'll let closer people know.
b'cos i really cant overcome it myself.
at times, i'll be wondering why is all these happening?
how come i am allowing all these to happen?
why in the first place would i agree to go?
will i ever regret in future?
all these answers are left unanswered by myself.
sometimes i doubt myself too.
closer people start to get suspicious but i jus dont have the courage to say it out.
wouldn't even know if courage is the appropriate word to use too.
but i know there were happy and memorable times too.
hoping to get the answer myself soon and overcome it.
still it lies with the 3 main reasons.
really donno why am i doing all these.
but i really appreciate the time spent to acc me throughout the night ytd. =)
thanks...

on the other hand, donno wat's wrong recently.
where's my engine? my motivation?
sometimes i start to question myself.
is it really for me? will i ever succeed one day?
gotta be ready for next month.
a faithful month i would say.
many many things happened.

things which i missed out..
my penang trip which i somehow looked forward to with classmates.
but on the other hand i knew i couldnt go due to commitments.
couldnt be selfish and leave my people on their own.
and also cos maybe my closer peeps were not goin too..
but sometimes i start to doubt who is true and who's not.
but well, all these are unwanted informations. =)

my kl and genting trip which i really wanted to go since 2 mths ago after darling shirley reminded me of krispy kreme.
wanted to ask the same clique up cos at tt pt of time, really wanted a break from everything.
but boss isnt available n shirley couldnt get her passport.
sigh.. and i was quite disappointed..
you asked if i wanted to go in aug due to both our work commitments.
really wondering if i should go but on the other hand i really wanna go..
esp the casino there too..

hopefully hk trip with sister will be fulfilled by oct or early nov.
a really short one when we clear everything.
jus purely for shopping!
and also jan's japan/korea trip..
will it ever come through? hmmmm..

when will u ever be back??
hopefully by cny and it'll be the best cny in the 23yrs of my life.
my happy pill madelene and handsome justin whom im really lookin forward to meet whom i know will never fail to brighten my days =)
my one and only closer one whom i would really share alot of things with..
talk openly but we only get to meet once ever 7 yrs.
how sad but im glad there's smt called msn!

posted by RaChEw @ Monday, May 24, 2010 0 Comments

actually i heard what u were saying when i was asleep..
jus wanted to ensure my ears were not playin tricks..
hahaa omg....

met up with yy last night.
instead of me making him happy, he was the one making me happy.
haha.. how interesting life can be.
loving sueann as much as before for always helpin me out!
thanks mummy! <3

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, May 21, 2010 0 Comments

i wonder who is the big mouth.

posted by RaChEw @ Monday, May 17, 2010 0 Comments

can someone jus come and tell me if watever things im doing is right or wrong?
am i spoiling them too much?
am i giving in too much til u r slowly taking advantage?
but well thanks for ipman 2! HAHAHAA

posted by RaChEw @ Sunday, May 16, 2010 0 Comments

so many emotions in me.
angry sad disappointed and maybe happy?

fucking hate it.
when i called to wish u happy birthday then i got to know u guys were tgt.
even indian tot i was goin down when i din even know about it.
tell me good frens?
fuck off la.. whenever i ask u u also don wanna say.
shouldnt have even greeted u.
rather greet indian.
if u guys cant be bothered, why should i even bother to greet u guys man?
even acting til the extend comin to ask me if i wan anythin from hk.
knn. fuckin du lan n disappointed.
esp with l.
cb.
tell me wat excuses? actually only 3..
then slowly add one by one..
knn even til the extend a will know about it?
well.. sounds so fishy!

and with u.
i donno whats ur fucking problem.
i missed the way u were jus 2 weeks back.
knn. i swear not to contact u anymore!
but well, good luck for ur upcoming exhibitions!
and i really missed 2012, alvin the chipmunk 2 and IPman 2!!!
WHEN WHEN WHEN?!!!!!

happy cos my darling daughter will be back in action soon!
im waiting for u babe!
i know it might be tough, but well will walk through it with u!!

posted by RaChEw @ Wednesday, May 12, 2010 0 Comments

when will u ever come to sense?
making every single one worried for u..
its been a yr and non of us can locate u..
cant u be alittle more sensible?
wats the point of givin empty promise sayin u r sry yet u did it again and again..
this time gettin ur dad in deep trouble..
not forgettin he has heart problems and ur grandma is not young anymore..

anw i donno wth is he thinkin..
all he knows is to drink.
drink til u die la..
birds of the same feather flock tgt.

hope u r feeling much much better...
really wanted to go over last night but..
take care c.
misses =)

posted by RaChEw @ Wednesday, May 05, 2010 0 Comments

what a day today...
wanted to watch but felt like im disrupting..
when will i ever get to watch it?!
and when will we be goin to kl for my krispy kreme and genting for my casino?!!
sigh..

posted by RaChEw @ Wednesday, May 05, 2010 0 Comments

where's the promise?
2012.

posted by RaChEw @ Sunday, May 02, 2010 0 Comments