was calm and somehow expected.
thanks darling for trying to help in whatever u could.
without u i will collapse for sure.
the only time i couldn't take it was when i spoke to best and i know i will break down once again if i happen to tok to sue ann about this.
somehow this 2 people are the people who knows alot.
understands me not forgetting my darling shirley.
best who is always not showing but i know deep down she cares.
but sometimes i jus cannot take her coolness.
im worried. very worried. jus few more days left.
how? i really want to maintain but im facing so much prob.
people breaking down on the phone to me.
tryin to comfort them when i am not in a sober mind..
but still i did my best.
initially my tone was harsh but i soften down at the later part..
sue ann whom best and i really appreciate.
she's really a mummy of mine..
always there when i needed her..
no matter how busy she is, she will still take out the time for me cos she knows when im looking for her means i have smt on my mind..
thanks for everything mummy..
she's really one of best and my pillar of support.
leaving sg in about 2 weeks time..
really hope i can enjoy and then come back to sg to face reality..
but i know i will never enjoy cos i will be worried about alot of things.
worried over office, worried if they are fine, worried what if best or daughter falls sick, worried over my darling bear and gal.
whenever i hear the piece of song playing in grace blog, i feel the sadness.
i know im troublesome.
very troublesome but i cant help it.
i really don wan to add onto ur stress.. trust me. really i don wan..
but i cant help but jus feeling extremely helpless. =(
i really hope best can take my nonsense for the next 2 years and i really hope i can take hers.
2 years is all we need.
everytime i think of doin smt silly, i am pissed with myself.
but jus couldn't help it.
boss somehow told me off the other day.
telling me i am crazy.
i really don wan watever happened to cw to happen to me for i know i will regret for life.
it was after what happened to her fren, then i noticed the importance of showing appreciation out and not keep it in ourself.
i really hope to be a better person man.
really really hearts the 3 of u people.
3 of u are the most significant person now.
and i really miss aunt fong.
how i wished u were here with me.
really missed houston alot though everyone is complaining that its a boring city.
if there's a chance, i'll be heading over to the states end of next yr with best and hopefully tat, michael, shirley, amanda, rebakah, chai lin, pet and whoever are with us.
posted by RaChEw @ Friday, December 04, 2009
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