RaChEw

sometimes it jus feels not worth to help people.
the more i help the more they blame me when they are tied down.
if that's wat they think, there's nothin i can do but i have all the evidence.

controlling all the way from 7pm til 3am..
til an extend i couldnt take it and decided to call c when i saw him online..
the moment he answered, i think i broke down.
started swearing n i bet this was the first time he heard me swearing..
cos i dont like to curse n swear in front of people..

on n off i was very worried..
texting sue ann and she was very nice to calm me down..
cant ask people cos non will uds wat am i sayin so other then c who knows almost everything, i could only confine in him, sue ann, sister, tat n la..
as i was askin c what should i do, la finally called..
immediately i hung up the phone with him n returned the call...

and once again i broke down.
more of heart pain when i heard what happened.
i didnt know this was the way they felt cos things were alright then.
nobody complained of unhappiness.

met yy for late dinner today cos i haven taken a proper meal since ytd..
shirley called n she joined us tgt with her frens ar 925..
mayb this is life..
if thats wat they wan, theres nothin i can do...

and today yy told me something..
dont cos of wat i said and mayb cos of face, i really mark my words.
he's not the first to tell me that..
but sometimes i jus feel its not meant to be..

posted by RaChEw @ Saturday, June 26, 2010