RaChEw

after speakin to both andrew n tat, i jus felt so low..
at certain point, jus felt like breakin down.
yes, cry baby.
but i jus controlled.

i din wan such things to happen..
really, but i got no choice but to jus do it..
leavin u guys all alone is not what i really wanted to do..
i know i gave u guys, esp andrew who's my 12 yrs of fren the promise.
i know i failed to deliver it but i really got my reasons..

i really wanted to attend AS this sat.
but i jus couldnt bring myself to the rock.
the barrier in me, the thoughts in me.
andrew told me one thing.. if i don go, he wont wan to go too.
pls bud.. jus go.. go n enjoy urself..
after so long, this will be my first time not attending..

like what my msn nick says.. the closest person is the one whom hurts you the most. best sol is NOT to be close to anyone at all..
how true i find it..
sometimes i jus wished i wasnt born onto this earth..
so i wont be having so much problems..
and sigh.. did not get to meet up this week at all.
shit...
anw i don wanna bother anymore..

and u seem not to be bothered at all..
since u cant be bothered, so be it la..
im sick n tired of it alrd.
when people needed help esp those who are closer to me, i will always do my best to help them..
be it family prob, personal prob or matters of the heart.
but when i needed someone to pour things, who can i ever find?

posted by RaChEw @ Friday, June 11, 2010