RaChEw

finally a good sleep...
i thank god for:

1. wonderful children like yy n trina who accompanied me all the way..
2. sue ann mummy who was always there when i needed a listening ear.
3. shirley daughter whom i know is always appreciative and willing to help..
4. indian who cherish the partnership..
5. sister amanda who trust me and really helped me alot..
6. tat who helped me all this while when i was absent from office..
7. dee who stand by me for all these 16 yrs..
8. uncle for always wanting to make things tough for me but with good intention to open up myself and to build up my confidence..

back from my short getaway..
a good one..
not as fruitful as my previous ones cos was on super duper tight budget..
but its the company that matters..
the last time i travelled with dee was like 6yrs ago..

back on wed night and went to meet children and shirley that night..
passed them krispy creme and catch up..
after much persuasion from tat n yy, i decided to go back on fri to help out a little.
but i treated tt bastard transparent.
so superficial..

i uds tat's situation when i heard what people talked about him.
tried to help out but was tough.
i know u r tryin to change bro but ppl always look at the surface.
so long as we all know u did ur best, u don have to worry ok?
things will fall nicely into place when the time is right..

misunderstandings worsen.
wonder if its a good or bad thing..
everyone in the other clique knows about it..
and started teasing about it.. omg..
people who knows me well will know i am super afraid of such things..
but luckily i don see them often.

but a wanna bring sis down on tue or fri..
and actually i didnt wan to take the responsibility cos i know she will be one of them to tie me down..
usually i'll be more than happy to take up the responsibility but not now cos prob is not settled.
and i know very well that frens/couples/family cannot work tgt.
i don wanna experience a second time..

sigh.. what should i do man.
i don even know what's the answer from my heart but i nv fail to ans the calls/sms tho sometimes i really told myself to ignore everything..
but i still cant..
even in malaysia.. i was partly happy that i saw the 3 missed calls and i gladly returned it back n chatted for awhile n the next day askin for advise which should i get!

and when i heard what happened from my girl when i was out of sg, my heart soften once again.
thinkin if i should give a call to give care n concern.
but when she reminded me of wat happened jus few days back, blood started to boil..
and unknowingly i was secretly laughing at her plight in my heart.
tellin myself its karma..
what a human i am.. and from then on i decided to move on..

posted by RaChEw @ Saturday, June 19, 2010