RaChEw

morning people..
slept at 3am and woke up at 7.30am automatically.
when i surf fb, i realised u removed me from favourites.
nice one.
for a moment, i really believed wat tat told me about wat u said.
yes i admit tho i have been tellin myself, tat, amanda n children i don care and i cant be bothered.
sis n trina was the first to declare i don mean wat i said.
some on my fb some on i think their walls.

stupid. naive. betrayed.
yes and i believe wat ss told me.
if tis is really how a best fren should treat each other.
and all he needed to use is to make me compare with his ex n the best fren.
i will and i must get over it.
are u really sincere?
i really donno. but i am always wavering whenever u play ard with words.
really.

i feel sis being unhappy these days.
for all that happened.
she's troubled with money.. i am too and so many more..
sigh.. i'll do my best sister.. i will.. i really will..
i hope u trust me and that this "sistership" is not worth only the amt of cashflow..
for u r really someone who helped me walked out of the past alot.
and i really really thank god for u.
i really really appreciate everything u had done.
the talks, the time, the lunch, the dinner, the hang out n etc!
i will really do my best. i will.
and i mustn't be greedy anymore.
i donno if u think im bullshitting, but i swear everything is the truth.
else i would not have shared so much things with u which nobody knew.
thanks sis for everything. i really mean it. really.

do u really mean wat u said?
u will be a little more free after aug 20...
i really hope so for i do miss those days.
our communication lvl dropped alot but sometimes the way u speak, the way u handle things, the way u give me solutions, the way u being my listening ear and the way u argue back with me never fail to brighten my day.
n i really hope to watch my shows soon.

when i heard wat u said in chinese, i felt so sian.
wheh i heard abt the long rod catch big fish, i felt u were like makin use of me.
and i really hated it.
do u even mean wat u said?
or u are jus tryin to disturb me like wat u did 2 weeks back?
hmmmm.. a penny of thoughts.
where's my holiday trip u wanted to sponsor me?
so so so many more things!..

anw thinkin of bakin some cookies for dearest people who might be comin over on sat.
also one jar for sis and one for ss.
not forgetting i will have some for trina, andrew, shirley, tat, sa mummy and m daddy.
hopefully i dont procrastinate myself and not bake like wat i used to.

posted by RaChEw @ Thursday, July 15, 2010