hmmm.. nvm hopefully another day.
somehow feeling things are fishy.
all i need is you to jus tell me the truth.
though i will keep askin, tt is jus to get a confirmed answer.
i might think another way but after askin and askin, i will believe. hhaa
been telling s..
i shouldnt have told him to be more sensitive when replyin text.
and yet i ended up harmin my gd fren.
jus felt tt i created a 3rd party between the ideal ones.
though he is always helpin me, but i jus think i did the wrong thing.
i can repay his kindness in some other ways.
so angry with myself.
guess i only have myself to blame.
i know im selfish by not helping but i jus cant help it.
makes me feel so heart pain.
on the other hand, felt some comfort when i saw the text to gd fren.
putting them in my prayers every mornin and night.
sometimes whenever i feel bad, i jus prayed.
hopping to seek some comfort from him by seeing things gettin better.
some might think im bullshitting.
but i don give a damn. whether i did prayers anot, god knows it himself.
also felt really glad that we are goin to sentosa soon!
after my exams!
bringin our dogs there and also our mj session!
missing ourr seafood and malaysia trips!
oh today is 1st oct.
tong is goin genting!
whoo~ remembering the times when we were there.
felt so happy when they became better there.
really. though i hated him alot in the past, but i know he is sincere.
it was only then in the crossroad when we were on the topic then i really realised tt he is realli sincere.
not only me, but everyone knows. hahaaa
we are all really happy for them and keepin them in prayers.
im sorry that i might give u cold treatment.
but cos i really cant forgive myself if it really happens.
and hopefully i don hear lies.
i know u r really a nice bro.
but i jus hope u wont come in between.
i really donno wtf am i writing.
typin really randomly.
cos im really worried.
sometimes i wished we never got to know you.
so things wont be so bad.
been quarrelling alot recently also cos of you.
i know such things im not supposed to interfere.
but they are really ppl whom i know for years and ppl whom i know will be there for me when i need them.
so i jus cant help it.
for a moment when i received a text from s, i laughed.
hahahaa.
cos we knew the feeling of jealous.
we were really happy.
sigh. i know u helped me alot.
but i jus cant help it.
they are my life.
seriously.i don wan cos of u, i lost any.
for i really hate liars.
we were plannin for a BKK trip.
gosh really lookin forward to it.
with them, i know its gonna be fun!
SHOPPING and seeing them chain smoking.
GOSH! LOL!
best bosses makes my day! =D
and thanks best for the lollipop.
not gonna open it!
cant bear to!
i hope you will really tell me things soon.
really feel like collapsing.
sigh... nobody seems here.
where were you when i needed u the most....
in less then a yr time, things will change alot...
sigh....
im really sorry bro..
but i really hope truth will be out.
i jus cant help it.
its affecting me alot.
seriously.
sigh....
lord pls answer my prayers.
amen
but i really hope truth will be out.
i jus cant help it.
its affecting me alot.
seriously.
sigh....
lord pls answer my prayers.
amen
posted by RaChEw @ Thursday, October 01, 2009
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