WaT aRe TrUe FrEnZ?
last nite studied til 3am so din blog.. revised maths n environmental.. after bloggin am goanna start on my EH.. today's paper i finished in 50 mins.. went to blk 51 n wait for the rest.. lol. amos n nenek wanna go donate blood.. actualli wanna go n c how is it done but needa go home study for my EH!while walkin out of sch saw jasmine n shahiday at blk 56 studyin.. hanah, lannita n i went to tok to them while the rest waited at the zebra crossin for us.. haha.. they wanna go thiong baru makan but was too laZy n full to travel.. lol.. they are kinda mad sia.. we jus had out breakfast at 10 n after our paper which ended at 12.30pm they say they wanna go eat.. lol.. hanah, gabriel n i went home.. hehe.. amos said im such a spoiler for not joinin them for lunch! lol..
saw fahanah n ser ling at interchange.. it's been so long since i last chatted with ser ling.. she's realli very nice to chat n we are arrangin a day when she mi n hanah go makan together.. hehe.. she said keith told her my class gals r all mad! their screams can burst one's eardrum.. haha.. tis i agree to the max sia! almost all my class gals r afraid of being tickled! mentionin abt tis.. today emily, my dearest sis n nenek all attack mi sia! n in the end i lied on the floor of blk 56! lol.. so fun! i luveeeeeeeeeeee their company sia! u guys rox!
am currently chattin with joanna.. currently at the topic of 'frenship'.. am feelin very down when tokin abt tis.. i read her blog n asked her abt this person.. lets name tis person as jane.. jane is havin some probs but joanna cant tell mi.. it's like we used to b buddies n she din even mention anythin to mi.. i asked her if everythin is fine with her she claim tt she is but n fact she is not! after some incidents.. jane n i drifted apart n i kinda feel tt she's biased.. she choose to side person B.. lets name person B as Apple..
i know that apple has backstab mi alot of times.. n i don give it a damn.. i know tt she has been doin tt for a long time but it's jus that nobody believes tt she does it.. but so sad.. her colleague had told mi.. we used to b good frenZ but now i realli hate her.. i realli wish she will b knocked down by a on-comin car! damn it.. she caused all the 'internal' conflicts between mi n jane.. i kinda feel due to tis matter jane is stuck in the middle but she's more to Apple's side..
joanna suggested that i should have a good tok with Jane but i know it's hard to start.. though we look normal but due to so mani things in life.. it realli makes mi think twice to do so.. it's like at a certain period of time i know she's depressed.. i wanted to tok to her n cheer her up but she like kinda reluctant to let mi tok to her abt the matter.. so i jus kept quiet.. i jus feel kinda lousy when i know she needs someone by her side yet i cant help her.. she chose not to reply my msg but i understand.. cos it's like i was kinda harsh but i jus wan her to know y things ended up in such a state..
watever.. i realli donno wat to do.. i onli know that when i need my listenin ears.. lala, nana n peiye are always there for mi.. i know i treat peiye very bad when im havin moodswings but she's really one whom i can trust.. i realli treasure u three.. in life.. many ppl says i have a big circle of frenZ.. but is tt true? i doubt so.. i rather have a smaller circle of frenZ n afew real buddies who will always b there for mi then to have a big circle of frenZ whereby non of them r true.. im kinda tired of frenship probs.. if any frenship probs were to happen again.. i think i will jus give up on the frenship itself..
i used to have so mani buddies but now im left with onli 3.. i've lost wee kwan, wei keat n rod due to some matters.. i know i neglected u guys n im very sorry abt it.. i know it's impossible for the 7 of us to hang out like wat we used to b but i realli hope we can maintain as frenZ.. xue ying can b considered as 'missin'.. sometimes we can contact after a yr.. we used to b so good in pri sch days but now... joyce too.. the both of us r always quarrellin over stupid matters but im glad we r still good frenZ now.. she's the onli one survivng since pri sch.. lindee too. it's like we don have time for each other.. but we still have each other's heart.. when i need her help n company she nv fails to b there.. she's one of my true buddies too.. last one is xinyi.. we've lost contact for so long! finally i managed to have supper with her few weeks back.. am so glad tt we could still have meals tgt.. haiZ.. wat is true frenship? can anybody ans mi?? am very tired of life! damn it! it sux!
posted by RaChEw @ Tuesday, July 19, 2005
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